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Gymnasietiden var ikke atter yolo og festivitas for mig (selvom jeg ihærdigt fik det til at ligne det). Det begyndte at gå ret hurtigt ned ad bakke for mig (eller hedder det op ad bakke, hvis det er en dårlig ting? (Jeg hader virkelig at gå op ad bakke)). Anyway! Jeg klarede den med nød og næppe, men det hele mundede ud i, at jeg befandt mig i et meget stort sort hul, da studenterugerne var overstået og tryghedsboblen var sprunget. Da mine venner begyndte at få jobs og starte videregående uddannelser i 2012, røg jeg direkte ind i systemet og gik i terapi til vinteren 2013.

Det var lidt af et ride.

Misforstå mig ikke – det er dejligt endelig at kunne snakke om sin hverdag som en ”normal” person, der bidrager til samfundet officielt, men der er et problem, jeg ikke rigtig er kommet ud over: Jeg frygter stadig større sammenkomster, med folk jeg ikke har set i et stykke tid.

Der findes nemlig to slags typer:

1. Dem der i medlidenhed føler sig nødsaget til at spørge mig hvad jeg laver og hvad jeg har tænkt mig at gøre med mit liv
(…når jeg i et kort øjeblik får lov til at lukke af for summen af ligeså overfladiske spørgsmål og svar, der bliver kastet hen over hovedet på mig).

2. Dem der rent faktisk interesserer sig for hvad jeg laver
(…og de skal være så undskyldt, men jeg ville ønske, vi snart kunne finde på en bedre icebreaker).

Jeg har været så heldig at blive ansat på en skøn arbejdsplads i hjertet af København (Café Klaptræet), men det er jo ikke dér, jeg skal ende mine dage. Jeg vil noget mere, men jeg ved ikke hvad det er, og nu går jeg ind i 3. ”sabbatår”. I øvrigt går jeg i virkeligheden ind i mit første, og det stikker lidt i hjertet, når folk bruger det term om min situation. ”Nåh, så du blev rigtig nok student i 2012? Så går du ind i dit 3. sabbatår – uuhadada, nu er det vist snart ved at være på tide at starte uddannelse, hva?”.

Halvandet år i terapi er ikke ligefrem det jeg vil kalde sabbatår. Det er jo ikke fordi jeg ønskede, det skulle være sådan – det blev nødt til at være sådan, og spørgsmålet omkring min fremtid minder mig om, at jeg ikke aner hvad jeg skal gøre ved den.

Siger du også pr. automatik: ”Det går godt!”, når folk spørger: ”Hvordan går det?”? Og bliver du også nødt til at sweet­talke din tilværelse lidt nogle gange, for at virke mere spændende/for at virke som om du har helt vildt meget styr på, hvad du render og laver?

Det gør jeg. I virkeligheden kunne jeg godt tænke mig at være ærlig. Hver gang. Og hvad er det så jeg frygter? ­ Mangel på accept. For ”hvem gider høre på et negativt whinehoved”?

Mig. Det gider jeg faktisk godt. Jeg vil hellere se bagsiden af den glansbilledeversion af det liv, du ellers normalt ville fremlægge. Jeg vil hellere have du siger ”Ved du hvad, det går faktisk ikke så godt fordi blabla”, hvis det rent faktisk er sådan, du har det.

Der er en generel mani med at lægge skjul på de negative ting, i stedet for at snakke om dem. Let’s be honest; ALLE kæmper deres egen kamp, og et eller andet har fået os til at tro, det ikke er okay at snakke om det.

Har du aldrig lagt mærke til, at de positive ting aldrig kan blive ”for private”? Helt fucking ærligt – DET skulle vi ellers snakke om.

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